Jaysus I'm Wrecked!
Ladies and gents, you're having a quickie with me this evening as I am so bleedin' tired, my eyes ache and I'm sure I've been wobbling as I walk. I have not had a decent nights sleep since Friday, I couldn't sleep properly on the bloody flight yesterday, my body is horrendously confused from jet lag, I couldn't sleep properly when I got home last night and some how I managed to blag my way through a day at work.
I had a great time in the grand 'ole USA and it was a shame it was so short. Any longer there and who knows what else I would have bought! We didn't have a mad night out on Saturday as my friend was wrecked from working all week but we did have lots of quality time to catch up properly. Who knows how much we would have had to drink if we had been able to find parking? We decided to go to Baltimore instead of DC and spent donkeys driving around trying to find a spot. No matter, I had a good time and seeing the state of myself today, I'm glad that I didn't go on the batter!
I saw MBF after work. I found out today that his mum has been very ill since the night before I went away and is still in hospital. I can't pretend I don't care for him and I wanted to see if he was OK. We chatted for a while and I felt fine being around him. Even when he told me that he missed me and that he thinks of me all the time, my heart didn't let me down. I didn't feel much of anything and whilst I'm sure The Contender has his part to play in this, I think it's just that I have parked whatever I felt for MBF and moved on.
I spoke to The Contender very briefly earlier and he's supposed to be calling me back when he puts some life back into his phone. He is away from Friday on a stag weekend so I'm not sure what is happening this week with regards to seeing him. The very chilled out me is totally fine with the natural, slow pace of things and if I don't see him till next week, that's fine. We exchanged a couple of texts whilst I was away and a few days away has made me realise that I must stay very chilled out about things with The Contender and let things take their course. We're not boyfriend and girlfriend and if and when it happens, it'll be because it's the right thing, not because we've rushed it.
Thanks to everyone for the comments over the past few days. I'll reply to them when I have my wits about me, and I need to catch up on visiting everyone's blogs. I'm off to la la land for some sweet dreams. I hope I sleep. Oh sh*t! What if I can't sleep!? Oh f*ck it!
I had a great time in the grand 'ole USA and it was a shame it was so short. Any longer there and who knows what else I would have bought! We didn't have a mad night out on Saturday as my friend was wrecked from working all week but we did have lots of quality time to catch up properly. Who knows how much we would have had to drink if we had been able to find parking? We decided to go to Baltimore instead of DC and spent donkeys driving around trying to find a spot. No matter, I had a good time and seeing the state of myself today, I'm glad that I didn't go on the batter!
I saw MBF after work. I found out today that his mum has been very ill since the night before I went away and is still in hospital. I can't pretend I don't care for him and I wanted to see if he was OK. We chatted for a while and I felt fine being around him. Even when he told me that he missed me and that he thinks of me all the time, my heart didn't let me down. I didn't feel much of anything and whilst I'm sure The Contender has his part to play in this, I think it's just that I have parked whatever I felt for MBF and moved on.
I spoke to The Contender very briefly earlier and he's supposed to be calling me back when he puts some life back into his phone. He is away from Friday on a stag weekend so I'm not sure what is happening this week with regards to seeing him. The very chilled out me is totally fine with the natural, slow pace of things and if I don't see him till next week, that's fine. We exchanged a couple of texts whilst I was away and a few days away has made me realise that I must stay very chilled out about things with The Contender and let things take their course. We're not boyfriend and girlfriend and if and when it happens, it'll be because it's the right thing, not because we've rushed it.
Thanks to everyone for the comments over the past few days. I'll reply to them when I have my wits about me, and I need to catch up on visiting everyone's blogs. I'm off to la la land for some sweet dreams. I hope I sleep. Oh sh*t! What if I can't sleep!? Oh f*ck it!
8 Comments:
Argh!! Send some of that 'stayin' cool' attitude this way, because I'm rushing rushing rushing things with Adam and it's making me crazy! (Him too, probably.)
Our date Friday was a distaster, but things are recovering quite nicely: we're meeting for drinks tonight. Wish me luck!!
Oh, and I'm glad you're back home and blogging again. Missed ya!
Is that you snoring? :)
I'm glad you made it back safely! And it sounds like the cool, calm, collected NML is coming around with this whole Contender relationship thing - much easier when you don't have to run circles thinking about everything! I think I'm coming around to it too, though our circumstances are completely opposite.
Glad your home all safe and sound. Can't wait untill your all rested up to hear more.
Until reading your last few posts I hadn't realised how close together Baltimore and Washington are. (I'm a bloke, looking at a map would be way too logical). Cool, Washington is a city I've always wanted to visit so I shall have to stay an extra day or so next year.
Glad you enjoyed yourself and welcome home!
Jet lag is a bitch.
Still, hope you recover ok. Welcome home.
Zee - Oh dear.....I hope last night was better? I'll pop over to yours and check in on you! Virtually that is! It's nice to be back thank you, and I am being cool, but you'd better read my next post as it's being tested!
DD - I'm being cool, calm and collected through gritted teeth today....I know your circumstances are different, but you still feel much of the same thing. Get back in the saddle and use that DD charm! :-)
Broom - Thank you and I'll be making an eyes half shut post this evening!
Alan - They really aren't that far from each other. My friend lives pretty much between the two so she has the best of both worlds. Go to Georgetown in DC. It's soooo lovely, but summertime is nicest.
SerialLoser - Ain't that the truth. I feel rough as a badgers arse! Thank you for the welcome!
Wow ... we already miss ya in the States!!
I only read part of the first line and got all excited then.
Damn NML, what a let down!
Sorry I'm late with this, been kinda tied up....but welcome back!
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