The offensive article has been removed from the Daily Mail website!

Well after a pretty eventful seven days since that bloody article about e-venge was published by the Daily Mail, it was removed last night.

The most distressing result of this defamatory article with all of its whopping 26 inaccuracies, was that it triggered a spate of harassment from my (convicted) cyberstalker for three frickin' days over the weekend, with some of the nastiness still on their blog. The irony is that this was the very same cyberstalker that the Daily Mail derided as a "maniac" in their very own paper!

When I was going to the efforts to protect the boyf and the bambino's name from being included and to ensure that I didn't appear in a 'revenge' article, it was because I was trying to protect my family and also protect myself from being falsely accused of the very thing that I have a five year ASBO protecting me from the actions of my cyberstalker!

Instead, the article triggered a spate of harassment and hate as the cyberstalker took great delight in believing the projection of their own crimes on me were now actually true and breached the crap out of the ASBO!

I was going to say that the Daily Mail have no idea what it is like to be cyberstalked, but they do actually, because they didn't mind writing about how awful it was before... It was so demoralising having to go to the blogs that had shown me support and explain that the person placing nasty comments accusing me of being a stalker or pretending to be my "slandered" ex boyfriends, is actually my harasser.

And what's even worse is that some of her other victims got caught in the backlash of it too and even though it was irrational at the time, I felt guilty that someone else was suffering again unnecessarily.

Anyway, at least it has been taken down now in what is described by the managing editor as a "gesture of good will" whilst the Press Complaints Commission investigate...

In the meantime, it's time to get back to normal sleeping, eating, and living, as I can't allow what has happened or the waiting game to consume me as I have an 11 month old diva with questioning chocolate brown eyes that wants my attention, to destroy the house, or to use the TV stand or shelves as a climbing frame...plus I have the boyf who has missed having a laugh and hurling competitive insults over the Wii Fitness....

In all of the craziness that ensued last week, it was great to find support in so many lovely people whether they wrote to me, commented, wrote a comment of support, or even went to the Daily Mail's website and left a comment (that never got published). Thank you.

This isn't the last of this as I now have to await the result of the investigation by the Press Complaints Commission, but for now, I can rest a little easier as that bloody page has been taken off their website.

Stalked by a Blogger

I admit that I have been going through an internal struggle about whether to keep this blog. It's actually not because I am any less interested in blogging but more because much as I love having a personal blog, I realise that it comes at a cost. I write a mothering column each week and run a couple of other blogs without going through the same angst but my anxiety has been propelled by an almost two year experience of being harrassed by another blogger.

I have rarely so much as admitted that this is what I have been experiencing, even though quite a few people I know through blogging are more than familiar with the situation and have been incredibly supportive. I guess it was because I was trying to keep a dignified silence. To be honest, I really hoped my harasser would piss off if I pretended that they didn't exist. Instead I paid for my silence by being repeatedly libeled through blog entries and blogs created about me or about acquaintances accusing me of harassment and one of the blogs created was specifically to be racist about myself and another blogger. I have had it publicly written again and again that I was sleeping with a blogger that I hadn't even met at the time and my name (with a false, made-up middle name that the harasser decided to guess at) has appeared repeatedly in search engines against all of this crap. How did all of this start? By me refusing to remove a blog entry that she didn't like...Oh and it wasn't an entry about her; she just thought she could dictate what I wrote because she was a 'valued' reader...

In January 2006 I went to the police and they managed to stop her from emailing me and for a short period I even had some peace and quiet from her ridiculous accusations. The fear of opening email and being physically ill with worry was actually the final catalyst for me starting acupuncture to help my sarcoidosis. I will never forget telling you all about how Dot Dot Dot man had brought me to tears and how in the early hours of the morning after my blog entry, my harrasser went to the trouble of sending me an email which started with "Checking up on your behaviours, I see others have walked out on you carefully and most sensibly. In case it was directed at me, I am not impressed by a sobbing fit episode , which is clearly constructed."

I posted pictures of my newborn daughter this year but have felt unable to share pictures of her since because it is one thing for a picture of me to be taken from this blog and have all sorts of racist shite written beside it but it's not fair on my daughter. This is a shame because I really want to be able to show you all how much she has changed and grown into a feisty little diva that brings her mum and dad so much fun and laughter. You may wonder why I posted her pictures in the first place? I felt brave when my harasser was in custody and then serving a prison sentence for harassing another blogger. I am listed on the Anti-Social Behavioural Order which prevents her from writing about or contacting me, but even now I still feel so nervous.

For the past few weeks, in between my rather hectic life of dealing with the bambino and the boyf, I have had to relive the rather torrid experience as I put together everything that had been sent to me in chronological order with explanations. It's actually bloody awful to see how much someone hates you and how every word that you write on your blog about your own life can be twisted and turned against you to suit their warped agenda. It's kept me awake some nights when really I should have been sleeping off the excesses of breastfeeding! It made my stomach churn to read the spite and malice directed at me and it left me feeling a bit in limbo.

I'm not that single girl that had bad taste in men and tale after tale of dodgy experiences with the species with a penis. I've lost the bad taste, will always have those dodgy experiences but I have the boyf and the bambino now and life is very, very good. Do I really need to be so scared of this blog? I love writing and after feeling scared about writing on here, I suddenly think "Oh f*ck it!" This is MY blog and I'll write what the hell I want to write and I will not be afraid anymore. I'm not going to pretend anymore and I realise that acknowledgment of what has been happening frees me up to be myself and face what has happened. I haven't done anything other than step into the crossfire of what you get when you mix someone with a victim complex with a broadband connection...

This blog is where it all started for me and for now anyway, it's not going anywhere. So I'm going to start writing on here frequently again. Anyway...enough of reliving bad memories...my daughter has just finished sucking my face and is now trying to type on my Macbook... I have to go as I am contemplating whether there is any polite way to say "Stop pissing on my toilet seat" to the builder... I'll be back though!